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Thursday, January 21, 2010 { 12:20 AM }

Something that i have learned over a long period of time would be that it's the best that you don't act like you care even if you do.

Worrying sick about someone just gets you into shit at the end of the day. Coz you will seem demanding and psychotic. I know exactly how it works and i just don't understand why i can't seem to stop caring for esp those who do not deserve it at all.

Right now all i wanna do is go back to Melbourne and just study and club my time away. It was so much more better just doing my own stuff and not being bothered about parents nagging, lying friends and what not. Fucked.

I really do not wanna think about any of this shit and lemme just update ya guys on what i have been up to in Singapore.
Watching movies is seriously all of it! I swear. I watched movies likee 3 days in a row. Argh. Oh btw you guys should really go check out The Blind Side. It's seriously awesomee. I was so inspired and amazed at the fact that such people still do exist in this world. Damn worth it.
My regular clubbing has kinda stopped. Might go this Saturday. It's so boring at nights. And believe it or not i am kinda sick and tired of clubbin and would rather slack aroundd.

Am off to sleep nowww. BORED!

Tuesday, December 29, 2009 { 2:19 AM }

It has been a very long time since i blogged. Then out of nowhere at 2.20 in da morning, i get the urge for it.

Realized that for most of the time i was blogging coz i didn't really find anyone who was really interested. And then, i stopped coz i thought that there was someone. And now, i feel like i gotta start blogging again. Just so that i feel like i have got my best friend back. As in my blog back. It's like when i write it out, i feel kinda sane again. Without giving a shit about any of da tags of course.

Back in Singapore for almost a month now. Has been a exciting one month. Some things i repeated to myself in Melbourne fa almost a million times just went down the drain in a single minute after i returned. What i wanted to forget, seems like i never forgot. What i wanted to achieve just seems never possible. I just feel like i am heading nowhere. I feel like i created a lie and forced myself to live in it. Now it's just too late. Now it's like there are no more tears left, just tons of dumb 'logical' theories that i have came up with and how i wanna always be that way.

Am so sorry for blogging after so long and being emo about it. Just feeling darn one kind.
I miss Melbourne much. It's a really lovely place and i did real well for my exams. The one good thing in mua life. lol. I got 4 distinctions, how about that for those who said i was parteying away? hehe ;)

Haf nah idea on what i am gonna do fa the rest of this night. Realized today, i don't feel as much as last time. Maybe i am totally immune to it. Or i always knew deep inside. Some shit like that is bound to happen. Trust me am so prepared considering the past.
See you, probably sooner than you fink.

ReV

Sunday, September 27, 2009 { 10:00 AM }

Very long time since i blogged uh.

Sorry guys. I actually do visit my blog once in awhile. Did upload pictures and all..But just didn't feel like publishing it or responding to any of the tags. Seriously fa the past one month or so i feel like i haf lost it fa blogging. And posts might not be as regular as last time oritey.

Hmm. Don't ask me why today in all days i have decided to blog. Maybe it's coz my last essay submission's deadline is tom. And after that all i haf left fa this semester are exams. This week is my term break as well so i haf got to start studyin oready. Arghh. Seriously all i haf been doing here is studyin, shopping and clubbing. Really. Instead of using the money to buy a $18 fried rice or a $20 movie, i rather splurge on clothes which happen to be reallyyy pretty here :) Just thinkin of shoppin makes me sooo happy. haha!

Once essays are over, i need to start shopping slowly for all of them in sg. This has to be done amidst studying fa exams in order to keep myself sane mann. Oh btw. I learnt how to cook oreadyy. Not an expert. But now i can eat my own food that kinda level. lol. So fuckin funny. Dhivya teaches me loads of stuff and i can't wait to get back and show off my skills to mua mum.

I guess i blogged today coz i was not really feeling good. I love being here. I swearr. The lifestyle is darn awesome but the thought that it has driven me apart from all my loved ones makes me feel sad at times. Like the once in awhile calls and once they haf got used to the fact that you are away the calls get lesser and lesser. It's especially shitty when a person calls you everyday and your so dependent on them and suddenly it just gets lesser. I don't know if i should be happy that they still call unlike many others who claim to miss me but have not bought a calling card till today. Shows who are real friends and who are not. Even the closest of people to me are not close anyone. And maybe. I prefer it that way. Atleast i don't need to put up with constant bitching or what so eva. Just me here. Doing my own stuff makes me feel happy. I am not a trouble to anyone and they stay outta my life as well. Good fink fa everyone right.

Haf been thinking about alotta stuff. And the one lesson i learnt from then till now would be not to depend. It hurts way to much when they are no longer around. And i would never wanna go thru wif it eva again.

Loves. Hugs :)

Didn't bother checkin fa any mistakes in this post. Sorry if it's a bad post. Chaos.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009 { 8:42 PM }

Hello :)

Back to some usual updating alrites.

Time is seriously flying over here. Am not kidding. It's like week 5 of my school already. That makes it 8 more weeks of school. Can you guys believe it? Coz i can't at all. Even my mum was mentioning that i am gonna be back home before i even realize it.

Essays haf been a real headache. I swear. 2500 words is no joke and they expect you to research for it with atleast 10 academic sources. I am so screwed. After September ends, the essay month ends. October will be used for studying for exams. Haiz..Suddenly it seems like i haf very little time left.

Have been entertaining myself by shopping, movies, swimming and uni..Yet to club but i haf a very strong feeling it's coming soon. lol.

Ever since i came here, i am very happy about one fink. I haf become so much more closer to mua parents. They call me everyday and we haf quite long conversations. Before this i prolly would not even haf anyfink much to say them. It's so true that absence makes the heart fonder. And i miss my dawg like crazy uh. That's about it fa now ppl.

Check out the photos :)

I was FREEZING while taking this photo!

Oh btw. The shisha here makes you real high. No idea why..

Drinkin after the longest time everr.

Dhivya darling n muaself. Before our girls nite outt :)

Shoba loves :)

I am telling you. Screw doughnuts in Singapore. Seriously these is the best stuff everrrrr. I am not kidding but i will migrate to this place just fa the Krispy Kreme mann. Yummy :D

See you all. Hugs!

Friday, August 7, 2009 { 5:23 PM }

Hey :)

Long time since i blogged uh. Sorry about that guys. Will give one long post now and make up for it. lol.

Hope all of you haf been doing fine. It has been more then a month since i came to Melbourne. Time really flies uh. Well let me give you all the updates fa here

Monash University

The education system here is really different. It's week 3 now and i am slowly getting used to it. There are likee loads of readings to do and i am even thinking of changing my Comms major if i don't really do well this semester. Seriously i don't know if i am just stressing myself fa nothing but have been studying every god damn day! People here really just mind their own business. Am friends with a few people in some tutorials. It's going good so far. Hmm. Wod else?
I wanna join some school club or sumfink just so to make more friends but i missed the open house so i must check out the website very soon. Assignments are due in week 6 and i am so fucking scared. Arghh.

Mua new apartment :)

Am so sorry but i haven't taken any photos of it coz i always use the webcam to show ppl around. lol. It's a 3 bedroom apartment very close to the city. I really likee the place actually. Am living with 2 other girls. Dhivya and Malini. They are real nice as well. The city is so near my place and i haf just started to jalan jalan on my own. Wif a map and all. lol. Oh. And the shopping here is fantastic. I likeeeeee :D
The clothes all the clubbing type but it's freezing here so i can't buy them as well. WTH rite. haha. Maybe i can come back to Singapore and make use of it or sumfink. That brings me to the next topic, the weather.

It's freezing. Am serious. My usual clothing is a tank top, long sleeve top and a jacket. On very cold days, i wear anotha t-shirt over the long sleeve top. Trust me even then it's cold. When i get into the hot shower i just don't wanna come out everr again. hehex.

Clubbing

It has been more then a month since i drank and clubbed. The shifting and studying is really keeping me busy so i don't really miss clubbing and all. Am having fun just as it is. Learning new things such as cooking as well. I am getting better ;) Will like to check out the scene actually. Maybe next month or sumfink. See how first.

Homesick

Oh this. Affects me quite alott. At times i miss family and friends so much that i feel like i am gonna turn psycho or sumfink. My parents call me everyday so that it makes it loads better. Friends call from time to time. And the one soul who i keep in touch wif every single day without fail is Silan..

Silan

Maybe this is the part in which i have to tell him how much i appreciate him. He cancels plans just to webcam wif me. Never knew such guys existed uh. Only have come across quite the opposite ones. There have been days i have cried non stop and he manages to put a smile on my face within 5 minutes. I don't know how he does it, but he always does. I love him loads. Had always been scared about getting into a LDR but now the fact that i am in it. It couldn't get any better. I miss him everytime i see him. But the love just increases. That 1 hour is prolly wod i look foward to every single day. I love Silan just more and more each day :)

Here are some outdated photos and some frm my Harry Potter movie outing. Take care people.
Lovess :)

Our 6 months anniversary.

I miss the kisses uh darling :(

I am glad that i have a found a friend in a boyfriend. Someone i can laugh with, live for and love always :)

Tuesday, July 14, 2009 { 6:50 PM }

Helloo people.

1st proper post ever since i came to Melbourne.

Let me just summarize my entire 1plus weeks for you guys alrite. Firstly it's like 2 hours upfront. So it's 7pm there and 9pm here.

My dad was staying wif me for the 1st week. We were going out wif his friends and all. Searching for a new apartment as well. I met up wif Dhivya, a girl i know from NYP whose really becoming a very good friend :) She has been helping me get around alott and telling me what i need to know abt Melb. She, her room mate n myself are looking for a house rite now. We'll prolly shift in before 7th Aug if everyfink goes well.

Right now, i am stayin over at my dad's friends place. It's a young couple actually. Very friendly and am learning alot staying here as well. I wouldn't know what to do if not for such nice people.

The one thing that i am still getting used to freezing! It's like 10 deg here. Fuckinn cold uh. I wear 3 layers plus jeans and boots! And it's still cold. Arghh. Food is also very very exp here. It costs 16 for a plate of chicken rice. Yeahh. Not kidding!

Oh well. My time table has turned out pretty well. Off on Monday and full day fa Tuesday and the rest are all 1 hr, 1 hr, 2 hrs days. How awesome is that ;) I like the place loads. I know how to take the trams n trains to get around this place. The next thing i need to learn is walking around the city and more about the clubbing scene..lol.

Went to shisha wif Dhiv, Amanda n Randir for my birthday. The photos will be uploaded once i get em' myself. They were darn sweet and bought for me the delicious choc cake everr. Was awesome. They all just took away my homesickness.

Yeahh. I do get homesick frm time to time. But as long as i am occuppied it keeps my mind off stuff. And Silan comes online everyday just to make sure i am not crying n all. Helps me loads. He never fails to put a smile on my face and am missing him loads.

Tk cre everybody. Just bear with the lesser posts till i get my own place alritey. Miss SG..Gd nites!

Thursday, July 9, 2009 { 9:44 PM }

Hey people.

Am in Melbourne already.

My dad is here and i am getting homesick at times..

It's freezing in here. That's all fa now. Will give you guys loads of updates next week oritey.

Tk cre :) Missing ya all....